I feel so angry.. So cheap..

I dont know what I should do..
I deem myself so belittled..
My head reels to and fro

Something/one that/who I crave for seems so close to me
For that/her, Still I can't really go on my knee

And to ask her out for a date, so to say
Some how I lose all my courage & all my plans go into "Ash-tray"